My Heartbroken Outcry.

One second. I wasn't able to stop thinking of Audrey, not even for a second. My mind kept on wondering, where is she right now?? What is she doing?? Is she alright?? How is she?? Will we see each other again?? I don't know what's gonna happen from here on out. All I can do now, is just sit and think about her.

Audrey left this morning, she went in around 11.30am or so, but her flight was at 12.20pm. I was there to see her off. I had to be, cause I wanna give her a proper goodbye. It was memorable, from the jokes we had with everyone else, namely - Marlo, Joel, Janno, Jay Ar, Janno's sister, Brendon and others. I gave her my pendrive, the one with Sanji on it. I placed everything she wanted and also some stuffs that I wanted her to know about in the pendrive.

We had fun, until the time when she had to go in, Joel and the rest left to Jollibee when she said goodbye, but I didn't want to follow them, so I stayed. Before she went in, she took a last look and waved. It was the last image I have of her. As soon as those door closes, I felt the discomfort in my left chest, and I've been feeling it all day even up till now. I can't let go of the feeling. I was okay at first. But then it started to get worst.

I finally broke down around 3.30pm, my afternoon was a sad one. I had nothing left to do. My afternoons were always being occupied by Audrey. She and I would be chatting all day long. I had nothing to do. I felt so alone. I spent my afternoon by sitting on my balcony, just looking up into the sky and wondering where she is. My eyes were teary. The sky seemed to go along with my mood cause all around were lightnings flashing down. The whole sky was dark as I watch the clouds move about with tiny patches of holes that allowed a limited amount of light to pass through. It made me feel better, but it didnt make me feel good.

I know I just need time, I know that i'll be better soon. Until that time comes please bear with me, please help me through my time in need. I'm just not ready to let go yet.

I Miss You Audrey.

.Andy Chung.

Sticking A Straw Through The Holes.

I went bowling today with the buds, I haven't gotten the pictures yet but I MIGHT post them up when I get them from Khairi. I wasn't sure whether to go or not but in the end I decided that it wouldn't hurt to attend the event. And boy was I glad I did.

So the 8 of us namely, Me, Khairi, Senussi, their sister, Sarah, Ida, Danial and Joel went bowling at Utama. Bowling was much harder than I thought and yeah you guessed it, there were loads of ball jokes about testis. We're just being average normal...teenagers/perverts/retards, thats all. I first went in an sat down on the seat and guess what?? I saw Senussi EATING sweets. And the first crazy moment went like this.

Andy: Isn't it still puasa time??
Senussi : Yeap it is!
Andy: Then why are you eating!!?? =S
Senussi: Because...I'm hungry, duh!

It was stupid and turns out he doesnt fast. Weird, I know. So we bowled and bowled and bowled. It was fun, most of us got gutterballs. I found a ball which I called it my lucky ball cause I was able to get a good hit with it. I even got a strike with that ball. My first ever strike XP. Sorry Joel but, I won =P. I beat you by 1 point. I got 60 and you got 59. Senussi got 57 I think. Not bad for a bunch of beginners like us, even though the points were over 300 XD.

So Joel left after that and we ended up going to Soon Lee and saw Mel and her brother there. We chatted a little while and shopped around making funny comments on everything. There was an announcement which was...unusual. A woman's voice was heard announcing that the store would be closed from 5.45 till 7.30 so that their muslim workers would be able to break their fast. Which then Danial said "Just hire more non-muslims lah!" and after the announcement the last word that came out was "APANI!??". It was definitely an awkward moment right there.

We went back to Utama and sat there watching Khairi's cousin's cousin bowl. We headed into Jolibee to get our seats before it was packed with people waiting to break their fast. It was alright. We ate together, made jokes while eating and took pictures with not 1, not 2 but 3 cameras. So after sungkai, we headed to the building across from Soon Lee cause Danial's bro called and asked him to buy some Guava. He bought the guava, I bought kiwi and Sarah bought pineapple. All of them were already sliced and prepared of course.

But before we headed to the building across Soon Lee, we were cam-whoring by the stairs, the one leading us to Charcoal, not the one connecting to Soon Lee. It was coo' and we all looked...something XP. And after buying the fruits, we chilled by the railings outside Utama, opposite to Charcoal. We just hung there, taking pictures and chatted. Ida went home after that, and I went home a few minutes after her. And that was my day. C= I'll try to get the pictures soon aight?? but again, no promises C=.

.Kuroro Lucifer.

Whistles Between The Holes.

You know what I find annoying on MSN?? The nick of those people who I don't know why adds what they're doing onto their nick, like for example:

Bla bla bla is going to KK tomorrow.

or

Bla bla bla is currently at mamik with cousins.

or

Bla bla bla is getting ready for tonight's outing.

Well guess what?? No one needs to know! If you wanna do it, then let me show you how its done.

Andy Chung is shitting/onlining. Current Time - 6.50pm, will be done by 11.45pm.

____________________

Anyhoo, I got my teeth extracted today. It was crazy! Four tooth at one go. 8 injections. The amazing part was that I felt no pain at all. It was practically painless and guess what?? The dentist really really loves my teeth XP. Wanna know why?? Cause all 4 of my tooth that were extracted were 3 rooted. He said I was the only one he ever saw that had 3 rooted teeth. Everyone else has only 1 root. For those of you who are completely blank right now, root is the hook area where you teeth joins with your gum. The function of it is to hold the teeth firm, if your root breaks, your tooth falls. So yeah.

After I was done with all 4 tooth, I asked the dentist if I could keep my 4 tooth and he said that he wanted to keep it cause its unique, so I let him keep it XP. You had no idea how hard it was for me to go on my day after that experience. My whole mouth was so numb that it was like having botox on my face. I couldnt even smile or frown! And it was sooo numb that blood and saliva kept overflowing. I know its disgusting but yeah, I had to constantly wipe my mouth. The numbness only went away after like 3 - 4 hours!

My mouth feels so empty right now, with 4 of my tooth missing. The braces are coming soon and its gonna be a bitch. I'll be getting them by Thursday. So just you wait C=.

.Kuroro Lucifer.

Boom! In The Toilet.

I saw my baby in mall today C=. I miss her loads. She was with her friends. Jazz, I love you =D. And I miss you too. I'm getting my teeth extracted on monday. I'll have teeth like yours soon =D.

So anyhoo, I just finished solving all three 2x2x2, 3x3x3 and 4x4x4 rubik's cube. Its really simple but i always get frustrated with the 1st step of the 4x4x4 cube. I love fixing the 2x2x2 cause its really really easy XP. No wonder Zubaidah got it right that quick.

So i'll be heading off to mall tomorrow with Jane and Audrey. The AAMJ-P is going out probably for the last time. Gonna make it memorable I hope. And yeah, pictures pictures pictures.

I got nothing much to blog about, but i'll leave you with another rhyme I made. Jaybee, Jane, and Aime read the rest and sadly to say I forgot them and Jaybee, I need those rhymes which you saved. Who knew that automatically saving your convos actually come in handy XD.

Do you love me??
I need to know.
The feelings i have for you,
I must show.
When I proposed to you,
You said no.
I had no choice,
But to go.
So this is my life,
But thank god though.
Cause I turned out successful,
And You turned out a hoe.

.Kuroro Lucifer.

3 Idiots, 1 Crazy Memory, Infinite Laughters.

Today is like one of those days where you could look back after 10 years and say, " damn, wish it could all happen all over again". Cause you see, I hung out with 2 crazy idiots that I would never ever forget. They are like my drugs, which i never wanna let go of. Yes, I'm talking about Audrey and Jaybee.

We spent the whole fucking day roaming around Mall, i know The Mall sucks but its not the places you go that makes the day fun, its the people you're with that makes you go psycho. Jaybee and I sat ON the floor outside the Diamond shop waiting for Audrey to arrive. Her 1.45pm SHARP is like 2.30pm. That's the time she arrive.

We did the strolling, looking around the area. Audrey and Jaybee ate at the foodcourt while I was getting high with the PSP that i brought. As soon as they were done, we saw Joel standing alone looking down to everyone below, We super kicked Jaybee's ass and shoved her to where Joel is and forced her to stay there with him. Arent you glad we did it?? =P

So while Jaybee and Joel were "dating", Audrey and I went and got ourselves rngs. Mary Jane gonna get one too!! AAMJ-P bitch! =D, After that we went to Winmark and Audrey bought Green Gel for JR. He's gonna be the Joker for the FOP thinggy. Then we went to look for nail polish and then to check out some cds.

Jaybee was left alone cause Joel went home, so we called her up to meet us. Joel and I didnt even do our Brotherhood Bird Call. =C. So while i was browsing DVDs for Maria and Jasmine, those two idiots went down to pee. I went down to wait for them cause they were taking to long and no jaybee, I said " Did you guys pee in slow motion?? Cause that was long!" and Jaybee replied "We're girls, cant you see the lipstick, the scarf??" and yeah. we moved on.

We were Cam whoring in the elevator! It was fucking stupid, but the coolest thing ever!! We went up down up down up down the elevator and did it again in Rizqun. When the door opened Audrey was the centre of attention cause she was making alot of noise XD. We went out of Rzqun and walked back in from the main door of the Mall.

We ate at I forgot what its called but it was good, and no Jaybee, Audrey paid for that one. We were taking pictures WHILE eating. It was funny. We went to Swensens for ice cream. My treat. Can you believe it?? The ice cream is $3.40 for a sigle scoop and guess what?? Jaybee and Audrey each bought one and here's the kicker, I only paid $3.40 for both of them! O.O" I was confused and quiet while we were roaming around after that.

I broke the silence by asking if the price was right but apprarently it wasnt. And we kept laughing like crazy about it. XD. We spent a considerate amount of time sitting at the food court next to the arcade. Fucking hilarious. Audrey was totally ignoring me and I told Jaybee that I was gonna punch her if she ignored me again. And guess what?? SHE DID!! XP. Audrey clipped a clip on my bracelet that says " So Wat If I'm Bitchy" which was fucking cool XD.

We went Unitek to browse at cds but didnt find anything so we headed back to the Mall. We sat at Fun Bread for a while and Jaybee had to go. Huggies were given and goodbyes were said. It was just Audrey and me after that. We chatted about Singapore - where she's gonna be, how I'm gonna find her, where her grandma lives, where my cousin lives and all sorts. Guess who can from behind me. JAYBEE!! =D!!

She came back! =D. So we chatted more! Angelea came with pictures of her friends. 3 of us got excited about it and the 2 idiots started running to the escalator, but then turned back when Audrey said "Wouldn't it be easier if we used the lift!??" and all of us went running into the lift. As soon as that elevator door opened, everyone dashed out like some kind of stampede. Crazy people I tell you. We took loads of pictures and had an awesome time doing it!

Hilarious pictures were taken. Even the workers there were laughing. So we took 8 pictures but made it into 24 so each of us can have all 8 pictures. And yeah thats when Jaybee had to leave, it was sad but i'll see her again on Monday.[Can't wait] Audrey and I spent our time sitting at DQ which the table specifically said "Customers Only" but since there were cups there, we sat down pretending those were ours XD.

I had to go after a while and I gave her a last huge hug and told her that I really miss her. And that was the end.

Even though they're idiots, but I fucking love them to bits. If you hate them, then hate me too cause I'm an idiot too, just like them. =D

If you wanna read a clearer version of how my day went, check out Jaybee's blog on my friends list C=.

So now, I just want to express something from my heart. I cant do it tomorrow cause the feelings might not be the same. So here goes.

Audrey,
Thank You for the awesome day today, I'm glad I spent my entire day with you, no regrets on anything. The crazy laughters were awesome, and I'll remember them. You thought me not to be timid in front of other people and I learnt to speak up. You already know that I don't want you to leave, but you thought me something. If you really love something, set it free.

The feeling right now is the same feeling I had when you first told me you were leaving. My heart may be aching, my guts may be falling, my body may be weak but I think I'm gonna be okay this time C=. I cant make this an emotional goodbye, I need this to be a happy one.

You inspired me to study harder, I cant promise that I'll keep my word, but I can promise that I will get to where I want to go, and that is why I'm listening to my parents and will be going to Singapore for university. Who knows, with my strength to believe and a little faith, I might be able to find you again. You've help me set a path for my life, and now I'll walk on it. 2010 is where my journey begins =D. Until then, I love you. I'm not gonna miss you, cause I already do. And I'll never stop.

.Andy Chung.

The Moon And The Sun.

Sorry, I haven't been a good friend lately. I know I've told you I've been busy the last couple of days. But to be honest, I wasn't. I was actually having a break down. My life was falling apart. And I know I didn't tell you anything. Its just that, I feel that our friendship is crumbling. And I feel that the only thing binding us together is a piece of manga strip. It's not that I don't want you to know. It's just that, I want you to be able to come to me when you need help and because of that, I can never break down, I can never fall so that you'll always see me as this idol that you'd look up to.

I know you feel left out. I know you feel like you're not a part of my life no more. But you're wrong. I can't lie to you, during your birthday, when you said it was canceled, I was really disappointed cause I was really looking forward to it. But when you said you'll reschedule it, it made me feel better. I know you feel jealous, and I'm sorry about that. It wasn't suppose to be that way.

It just that, I feel that you've got someone now, and I see you happy in school and everything else seems to be going well for you, and I hate to be the one to smash everything up. I thought you needed me less. I could be the guy you come to for a small chit chat and maybe have a laugh or two. But I was wrong. And I don't wanna brag but, you still need me don't you?? Please say yes, cause...I need you too =D.

School may be a bitch, life may suck most of the time but you know that I'm always a phone call away. Owh and you know what?? Your mobile number is the only number I could remember, cause its easy C=. Plus I need it when I have an emergency and I don't have my phone with me. I could call you instantly.

Don't worry, you're not just another chapter in my life. Remember what I used to always say to you when we were in our primary days?? Bro and Sis Forever. I know its cheezy. But fuck that! People who think its cheezy don't know what a bond really is C=.

So I say, Jia Hui, don't worry. I'm here. As long as I'm still breathing, you can come to me anytime C=.

Love you loads C=.

.Kuroro Lucifer.

Click Click Boom!

Lu See.. Where are you?? =C. Its been ages. I cant reach you cell. Stupid international phone services. Malaysia and Brunei are that close and yet the phone service is always so suckish.

I got loads to tell you, I got loads to say to you. So Yeah. If you're reading this. Hit me back. Cause I miss you and your stories. C=

.Kuroro Lucifer.

Multiple Pose In One Single Shot.

I haven't got much time right now. I'm pretty busy so yeah. All I wanna say is I had a blast being alone today. Never leave a lonely man at home alone with the fridge stock with food. I tell you I cooked the fridge half empty and it only took me 4 hours to do it. I cooked mee, made mushroom soup, fried my fries, made eggs, juiced my apples and carrots to make my juice, took a piece of chicken and a few hot dogs and cooked them.

The best part is...I ate all of those by myself for my breakfast and lunch! =D. And my parents were worried I didnt eat anything XD. So yeah. That's pretty much sums up what I did today. The rest of the time I spent sleeping. It was a good day for breaks and relaxation.

P.S Aime, Its raining =D. Just like you said it would.

.Kuroro Lucifer.

Sandals In My Pocket.

I had a really awesome time last night. First of all, Alicia made me believe that there ARE such things as coincidence. Everything between Alicia and I never happened on purpose. Everything was by coincidence.

The first conversation we had. That was by coincidence. The first time we met in Lucky Restaurant. That was a coincidence, and it sure was lucky all right XP. Then those national day practices. When I thought I wouldn't meet her on Valentine's Day, guess who popped out from nowhere?? From the thousands of people in the field, we manage to collide into each other. We managed to make Valentine's Day special after all. That was a coincidence.

I would message her on Saturday nights and there was once when I was out roaming around in Gadong, she said she was in Gadong too. And boom, we met each other there. We talked for a really long time and yeah, that was by coincidence too. And who would forget the Maths Carnival. We met there by coincidence too. It was the best 2 days of my life XP. Henry and Nizam felt the same way too. Henry met a new girl friend. I wonder how she's doing right now. Nizam made a couple of guy friends too. And me, I had the chance to see Suok Jiuan, Tiff, Wen Yi, Rabiatul and Alicia again. And I met new friends too. Amal! =D. I wonder where she is right now.

So anyhoo, everything that happened between Alicia and I were all by coincidence. If things are meant to happen, then no planning is needed. We had our blast from the past moments yesterday. And its been 3 years. Coming to 4. Its been one hell of a life. C=


That wasnt the only thing that made my night. The main event.... I miss called Aime at around what?? 12 something?? And she was still awake. yeah we messaged for a while, but then she called. So we talked on the phone for more than 2 hours. It was nice. And we were story telling about everything. I got hungry and ate a donut and a piece of bread while listening to her stories. XP.

We said our goodbyes and some other stuffs and I fell asleep no long after. I had my nightmares again. I think what Mar said was right. Must be the donut and bread that made me have nightmares. This time. it was at a market place. Just a normal market place like those in China town. The weird thing was, I went up at one of the blocks and there was like a totally different market place, and it was on the second floor.

The more I walk forward, the higher the line of shops went. And each time I pass a store, I would have to walk like 4-5 stair steps to get to the other shop. The higher and further I went, The darker it became. Until at last I was in total darkness. And I turned back and saw the line of stairs and steps were still there. When I turned to face forward, there were a couple of spirits floating around right in front of me. They were just floating endlessly and they seemed lost. One of them, a female, turned to look at me. Then it charged at me and its face turn into a demon like face with sharp fangs.

I didn't wake up. I ran back to the light. I ran really fast. It was like playing counter-strike with 4 times the moving speed. I jumped down every stairs and I saw Cindy, I pulled her and shouted for her to run in mandarin. I felt slow and in the end, I jumped down from the balcony to the first floor and I woke up there.

My second dream was weird. It wasn't creepy. It just had an uneasy feeling to it. I was walking along an alley in the hotel. Room by room I passed and I stopped at an elevator. I got into the elevator. It was massive!! Like the size of our classroom in school. And there was a man there with me. To be honest, he looked like Morphious from Matrix. And the buttons were unusual. There were more buttons than I could imagine. I'll just call the guy in the elevator with me Morphious since he kinda looks like him. So Morphious pressed the 8th floor, it opened up and I saw there were these rides where kids love to play like those cartoonish bumper cars and kiddish games that you find in the arcade.

I got out, cause I was feeling uncomfortable. Then out of the blue, I appeared in another elevator, this time it was really small. It wasnt square in shape, it was actually round. There were only 3 buttons there. 5, 4 and G. I pressed G and the elevator door opened in a really cool manner that I couldnt explain. It wasnt the ground floor. It was where cars were parked and a car ran right at me. The elevator door closed by itself and yeah, I wasnt hurt. I pressed 5. And before the door could open, I woke up. My mom was calling me to ask if i wanted to go Miri. And yeah, since there wasn't time to get my braces, I didn't go. I stayed home and slept.

The post is getting too long. I'll make another one by tonight so that you guys wont get tired of reading such a long post.

.Kuroro Lucifer.

Get The Body In Motion.

Lets get this started!


The rules:

1. State 15 weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself.
2. The 10 people I tag are then to follow and write their own 15 weird things/ habits/ little known facts.
3. No Tagbacks

Fact Number 15.

I love to crack every part of my body. From fingers to toes. From head to my back. Everything. As long as it has a bone, i'll fine a way to make those cracking noises.

Fact Number 14.

I have 2 normal size pillow, 1 gigantic pillow, 2 blankets all on my bed but the only thing I use when I sleep is my dog Eddie. I don't sleep on pillows nor use any blankets. Just Eddie. And no, I don't hump Eddie before I sleep. You sick, sad, lonely, desperate assholes.

Fact Number 13.

The only thing I read, is the newspaper. The only time I read it is when I'm in the john, doing my business meeting. You know. My meetings. And I love being occupied with the newspapers. Some stories may anger me which makes it easier to push. Too much detail?? Let the image of me shitting sink in your head for a while. C=< Fact Number 12.

When I'm alone, I weep like a pussy. Nawhhh. I don't do that. Sometimes I do. But most of the time, I dance. Pumping up th music and just dance. But I never danced naked. I've sang naked before. But that was when I'm showering.

Fact Number 11.

I can watch the same tv series or movie over and over and over again without getting bored. But only for Romantic Comedies or just those really stupid comedies. I've watched Scrubs from season 1 - 7 for more than 30 times already. Kept replaying them over and over and over again while I watch them at night. It helps me fall asleep. The movie Van Wilder - Party Liaison helps me to study. I was watching that while I studied.

Facto Numbero 10.

The way I study is totally different from how others study. People say that I'm too calm. For example, exam is tomorrow and yet I'm still playing and fooling around. I can't be forced to study. I have to do it by my own will if not nothing goes in. And I need music, tv and noises when I study. People can't do that cause they get distracted. But I do it cause I remember what I was doing to get what I was studying. Even diagrams, I have this photographic memory that I take pictures with my mind and think of the next time to pair them up so that I can remember them. It sounds complicated. But I've been doing it for years.

Facto Numbero 9.

I am a totally different person when I'm in school but as soon as I pass those gates and go home. I have a different personality. I can talk more than 1000 words per hour in school. But I only speak less than 100 for the whole day at home.[Excluding the singing]

Facto Numbero 8.

I am an average man. I am never number 1 in anything. I've always average. I'm not good in studies. I'm just average. I'm no good in sports. I'm just average. I'm no good in singing. That, I'm below average. I'm just average. I don't really suck in something. And yet, I'm not really good at anything either. Just average.

Facto Numbero 7.

Everyone has a hobby. Some collect stamps. Some collect rocks. Greedy assholes collect money. But I collect something different. I collect ideas, quotes and thoughts that uses common sense. I find them interesting and useful whem applying them in different situations in my life.

Facto Numbero 6.

When I'm out on my own on the streets. I like to try things. For example, while I was in Kuala Lumpur, I lived at my uncle's empty apartment and below that apartment is a Starbucks Coffee Shop. For the 4 days I was there, I ordered Starbucks every morning. And I did it by using different accents to see which one I sound better in. And as always, my british one was the easiest to understand and so I stuck with the british accent. I would do it in school but my friends would just get annoyed by it if i do it every single time I talk.

Fact 5.

I'm a cook. I tend to try and add different ingredients to the food I cook. Which explains my constant stomach problems. But not all of them are bad, Capplet Juice was a success. For those who don't know yet, I took a green apple and a carrot and I juiced them together. The carrot juice would be above the apple juice but when you drink it, it taste amazing.

Fact 4.

I'm not a very independant dude. I need people around me to survive. I need people to constantly talk to me. Cause I think alot. And when I think, I come up with crazy ideas which is bad for me and for my mental health. So I need people to talk to me. And I depend on the people around me.

Fact 3.

I hate my friends. But they're the only ones I've got. And it was easy to make my decision. Even though I hate them, I made my decision to stay. Cause I don't wanna regret one day in the future. And you know the saying, quoted by Dr.Bob Kelso of Scrubs 'The thing you hate the most, will be the only thing you miss most when its gone'. So yeah, hate them or love them. I'll stick by them or just a little while longer.

Fact 2.

I like it when people come to me for advices and help. Especially you Lu See C=. Even when you're so fucking far away. I'm still glad you come to me C=. Even though each msg cost me 20 cents. But it's all good. And yeah, it makes me feel that someone actually trust me and believe in me. Thanks Lu See =D.

Final Fact Numbero 1.

Short and Simple.
My joy and happiness comes from being needed.

I tried to do this yesterday and to be honest, I couldn't even think of one simple fact about myself. Maria opened up my mind. She's the one I go to when I need help and as always, she never disappoints C=.

I tag Lu See and Jia Hui.

.Kuroro Lucifer.