I Stand By My Means To Survive.

Welcome home, while away
They have tampered with the locks
And your things they rearranged
"We propose...a better way"
Said the note they left behind
In their wake of disarray

You fell in place
Don't fall asleep
They'll find us here
I know a place, to disappear
As a voice proclaimed

What we are is the sum of a thousand lies
What we know is almost nothing at all
But we are what we are till the day we die
Or till we don't have the strength to go on
Till we don't have the strength to go on

Let us cry, let us be
Let us open up our hearts
Without fear of anything
Faith alone's all we need
To traverse this burning bridge
Now before it gets too late

You claim, "it's fine"
But the heart reveals
What smiles betray
Your sad, sad eyes
Gave you away
Don't you know

What we are is the sum of a thousand lies
What we know is almost nothing at all
But we are what we are till the day we die
Or till we don't have the strength to go on
Till we don't have the strength to go on

Our shoulders bear an awful weight
But still we trudge on just the same
Our colors run then leave a stain
They blacken our once honest name
How can we argue, tell me
Over the fury and the fire
How many times can we tell you that we
Are not like you, we see right through
The poor disguise that fails to fool
The wary eye is trained on you

What we are is the sum of a thousand lies
What we know is almost nothing at all
But we are what we are till the day we die
Or till we don't have the strength to go on
Till we don't have the strength to go on

What we are is the sum of a thousand lies
What we know is almost nothing at all
But we are what we are till the day we die
Or till we don't have the strength to go on
Till we don't have the strength to go on
Yeah, till we don't have the strength to go on.

.Kuroro Lucifer.

Fuck You.

.Kuroro Lucifer.

I Have The Rights To My Own Fantasy.

Friendships...Relationships...they're pretty much one big confusion. I had a good day. Will it remain that way tomorrow?? I had fun celebrating Teacher Annie and Teacher Mawar's birthdays today. As I sat at the back of class, sipping my green tea alone in the dark, I cant help but to smile watching all my friends having fun. The friendships we've established all these years. Will this be our final birthday celebration in school??

To see my friends running with joy and laughter, trying to shove creams onto each other's faces. And to think, 5 more months from now, it will all be gone. Friends from left to right, we might see each other again but I might not get to see them all together in one class. As I sat there, I told joel and Rahat what the future might be like. And there was nothing else to do but to make a toast. Rahat, Joel, Hawaii, Jasmine, Cynthia and I. Cheers to the last year of St.George's School.

I felt like the whole class was a team. No...I felt like the whole class was my family. Seeing Joey taking pictures with Haziq and Hafiz. How Joel took a napkin and wiped off cream from Joey's face. How Dayat tried to put cream on haziq's face and how Maria got creamed in the end. We're a family man. Its been one hell of a run. We've reached half of our journey and the other half is just about to begin.

I love my form 5Bs. Not because they're the only ones I've got but because they're the only class I want to have. Yes, we're playful. I know..But we made memories. And they're all worth it.


Relationships...its funny how everything started off mushy..followed by all the lovey-dovey crap. Then everything slows down. You begin to settle down..and everything goes on as normal. You manage to find out her flaws and you'll be saying that they dont matter because you'll still love her. But that's not entirely true. Once the settling down is over, you begin to get irritated because her flaws has become a nuisance to you and you'll be saying things like "She's not what she used to be." But once you really overlook those flaws, you'll find out that loving her is just that simple.

To be honest, I always thought Aime was the only annoying one. Her sentences always end with and instead of a fullstop. Her letters are longer than my English essay and all the things that she try hard to do in order to impress me, I find most of them annoying. But I knew that she was trying to make an effort in our relationship. And those peak moments when she really gets on your nerves. Those moments drove me into insanity. But looking back at them, they became a chapter in our relationship.

Aime, I realised that you're not the only annoying on in the relationship. All girls are. I'm not being sexist. But they're just making an effort in the relationship. I found that out when I was dining in excapade. There was this woman who ordered a green coloured beverage and she took a sip from the straw. Judging by her expression, she must have loved it. What she did was, she asked the boyfriend to take a sip but the boyfriend rejected. She told him not to be like that and just take a sip, again, she was rejected. She then shoved the drink right infront of his face and demanded the boyfriend to drink it, so he did and he went "Happy Now??" and all the girlfriend could do was smile. I'm not talking about teenage love here..I'm talking about a man and a woman probably in their late 20s. Even they act childish too.

Aime, I may get mad. I may get disappointed. But that doesnt mean that I dont love you. I cant even imagine myself doing things alone anymore. Because everything I've done, I've done it with you and although I may hate some of them, I've reliased that it sucks doing them alone. I need company..I need your company..I need your love..I need you. I love you.

" The Fatter You Are, The More Love I Get To Shove Into You"
Andy Chung.

Shut Up Your Mouth-a!!

This insomnia or migraine or whatever crap it is, is just awesome.. just awesome. I'm dead tired. I can't sleep, I roll around my bed having crappy thoughts about useless events in my life. My back hurts alot. I get paranoid really really easy with the headache crushing into my brain. I feel like taking my anger out at someone like Jasmine..but that'd be too mean. So yeah. This headache is just awesome..Cant be happier.

.Kuroro Lucifer.

You're Not Special Anymore.

You...you know who you are...And I just want to tell you, from this moment on, our friendship is terminated. Yes, its true that I used to like you. I used to go crazy for you, but you were never interested in me. I found comfort in your words even though I knew they were lies. I'm not stupid. I can find the answers on my own. You lie too much.

I was thinking about what you said..and you know what?? Screw you..I'm done playing with your mind games. I'm not some dog that just throws away what I have just for you. I knew how you act, I knew how you operate. You're cocky, you have an ego the size of a whale. You're just like me...but you have looks to back you up.

I used to like you, I still do, but you've crossed the line when you said that my relationship will never last with someone like Aime. I never knew you went down so low. Fuck you. So what if my relationship will never last?? If it doesn't last, I'll make it last. Because dammit bitch, unlike you, Aime actually gives a shit about me and fuck you for saying that I'll never be good enough for her. Its just a desperate retaliation from you.

I know I'm not good enough for her. But I feel that each day, I'm getting better and better. Maybe after a thousand days, I'll finally be good enough for her. I love her dammit! Whats wrong?? You're finally jealous because I'm having fun and you're not the reason for my happiness?? I've worked hard for my happiness dammit, dont try to take that away from me.

Let me compare the two of you. Aime's a princess, you're some diseased bitch getting humped by some other dogs on the street.

Back then, we were young, things you did wrong were cute but right now, they're just non-sense.
I hope you have a 'wonderful' life being an asshole. I don't want to hear you anymore. Your craps, your non-sense, I'll forget them, even if I have to bash my head on the wall till I fall into a coma. Cause that is how much I hate you. Who cares if I lose one friend?? I got loads of them back in my school, and each and everyone of them are fucking better than you. They have something you'll never have, a heart.

I learn alot from you. And I thank you. I wouldn't have been the cocky, big ego maniac without you. You thought me how to be mean, stepping on people who are lower than me. But things change.And I've erased you from my life. This is my last message to you. You were once special to me. But not anymore..Goodbye. We will never speak ever again. 'Middle Fingers To You' - Thank you for your catch phrase.

.Kuroro Lucifer.

She's Annoying, But I Love Her.

Here's some 'fun' facts to know.

Did you know that the last time I blogged was on the 23rd of December of last year??
Did you know I stopped blogging on my 100th post??
Did you know starting my 101th post is like starting new??
Did you know Jasmine has a facebook?? O.O"
Did you know that she's in a relationship and its complicated!!?? O.O"


Annnnyyyhooo, so I've been gone a while. Guess I'm back and hopefully I'll stay that way.

What has happened since I stopped blogging?? Lets see.

Things that have gotten less.
- I have less teeth for braces.
- I have less pimple which makes me looks way way handsomer...Right honey?? C=
- I have less friends because they've been promoted to assholes that I love..*cough* Jasmine *cough*
- I find Jasmine less attractive. And i wasnt even attracted to her in the first place.
- Aime having less fat O.O.
- I eat less I think.

And thats all I could think of right now.

Moving on.

Things that have gotten more.
- I've gotten more buff, I can snap Jasmine's chicken neck with 3 fingers.
- Homeworks...they're such a pain.
- I've grown taller.
- I'm one year older. 17 bitch!! That means including this year, I have 3 years left being a teenager =C.
- I'm much more nicer now....I think. C=
- I'm more stressed out. Not because of homeworks. Its because I ran out of things to download and its driving me nuts!

Thats all I got. Man...my life must suck!


My recent happenings.
I've downloaded Inkheart which I didnt get to watch in the cinemas cause people go "Whats that??" and all that crap. So yeah, I'll have my own mini cinema in my room. I've also downloaded The Tale of Despereaux. Maria wants it I think C=.

My life has been dull. Same daily routines done over and over again. Why cant exciting disasters like earthquake or typhoon occur in Brunei?? If a typhoon ever hits Brunei, the first person I'm gonna be looking out for is Joey. She's gonna be flying like how she flew up the hill at tasek lama. Advantage of being skinny. Unlike me, I'm not fat...I'm just heavy. I'm so heavy that artificial horses at the merry-go-round got tired from carrying me. I'm so heavy that when I stepped onto a voice control weighing machine, it said "One at a time please."

I wasn't able to watch 12 rounds starring John Cena. =C My friends arent WWE maniacs like me. Speaking of WWE, WRESTLEMANIA 25 IS IN 2 DAYS!! =D Cynthia said that wrestling is fake....I have no comment XD.

Owh yeah, I forgot to tell you guys a story. I went to Kuching during the school's very short holiday. On my flight back to Brunei, I sat next to these 2 women. During the 1 hour flight, all they talked about was pregnancy. I butted in from time to time just to kill..well.. time XD. I had no say at all when they changed the topic to breastfeeding. =.=" Instead all I could do was sit there and listen. Breastfeeding is awesome XD.

So I guess thats it for now, I havent been blogging and I found that my english has dropped drastically ever since the 3 China men took over the school's office. I dont blame them eventhough its obviously their fault for speaking such..cra..I mean improper english =P. But they are who they are, so yeah C=.


I took some pictures of sunrises and sunsets while I was in Kuching and Miri and I wanna show it to you guys C=.

.Kuroro Lucifer.

High On McD!!

This will be the last i post for today. I'm tired from moving around alot. All i wanna do now is just sit and watch the downloads go 135kb/s for every single movie i downloaded. =D its awesome!!

I went to Chinatown.

I wanted to buy something here but i guess i'll wait till tomorrow.

Chinatown =D

The cinema. See the girl giving me the peace sign?? People should be more like her! =P

There are 8 cinemas here. Which is very awesome and the tickets are really cheap! Only $6,7,8 and $10. =D